click.. funny. laff.

Shiny Happy People
I used to tell people that I really had no gay frens. I really dunno anyone who was openly gay or told me tht he was gay. I've suspected a classmate or two way back in secondary sch, and even in JC, but tht's abt it. I think there's something abt me tht says "Gay men, stay away".. not that I'm ever going to be inclined that way of course..
Today I met 2 of them. openly gay. I even felt stigmatised to be called "straight"! haha.. but I guess I'm glad for one thing - the moment they see me, they could tell that I'm straight. They didn't even need to check or anything. I guess that could be why I've nvr been approached by one before. never really had tht "problem".
I was homo-phobic at some points in my younger life, but today, I was good. I was comfortable somehow, except during the minute or so tht they both crowded arnd one of the iBooks (abt the time one was showing the other his collection of naked men/ boy pictures). Apart from that, there really isn't anything to 'fear'.. or wat not. I noe ALCY alwiz mentioned wanting to beat one up if ever one decided to get too close. All I can say is things have changed for me, and for all I noe, I mite wind up having a gay fren or 2 in my life.
Just a milestone moment in my life I guess. had to put it down here.

Tonite, I could breathe.. =)

I was so amazed at some of my friends and how far they've come since graduating. I've alwiz marvelled at ppl who seem so adult-like, so grown-up. I tot tht I had to be like tht in order to grow up too. Why do we lose our ability to have fun as we get older? Is being mature and stiff de rigeur for our journey in life? People keep telling us to grow up, stop being a kid, behave properly, act your age..
Then something or someone comes along and demolishes everything you've been told. I have a friend- She has no qualms abt letting loose. She's been working a regular job for the past 6 years, and can decide today that she wants to leave it all behind and pursue her first love. Wherever she is, she finds some way to let loose and just let go. She's the kind of person who does cartwheels on the lawn of a club, while people are watching. She can dance in a car attracting the attention of a stranger in a car next to us, just so "he can be entertained in this jam". Here I am, way younger than she is, and I feel I'm so old compared to her.
We live to get older, but find that we miss the fun we had when we were being kids. So why abandon it? I'm sure there are many areas in our lives that we can inject some kiddishness into, just to liven things up abit. Just cos we're older doesn't mean we have to be.
Happy Birthday Ju!

I love making people happy.
Birthday greetings go out to the following wonderful people on the 27th of October (according to number of letters in the name):

1) Jeanette
2) Gail
3) Elf

May you just be wiser (without the older bits)!

To some ppl, I have done a shitload of things. to others, wat I've done is of no consequence, cos they've done many other things. I dun think there's much of a comparison to be made at all. in the end, when u talk to someone, its a chance to find out if you can match character-wise.. its not abt outdoing someone, or being better than someone. its abt trying to merge one's own characteristics with that of another person's.. its abt a genuine interest in finding out abt another person..
The thought tht inspired this got lost, and I'll just end here before I get anymore confused..

You do not realise how dangerous it is to ride pillion on a motocycle! I ride a bike, and I noe the possibility of crashing is quite large. I noe tht its me tht's wrapping the bike, and not the metal tht's around me. I dun normally offer rides to ppl anymore, I dun insist that they ride with me, cos I noe its not safe, and tht by saying yes, they have agreed to put their lives into my hands. I knew tht before. I knew the responsibilities and dangers. but I realised today, the immensity of this trust..
I was riding with Mike to go catch the movie abt Bill.. I usually have thoughts of crashing while riding, tht alwiz reminds me to be safe and alert. somehow, the height of the bike and imagining the frailty of the situation, the lack of control while sitting behind someone and letting tht someone guide your life thru tht road. I had those flashes again, and I got so scared.. narrow space between cars, cars behind. if u get hit, or if u hit.. where will u fly to? what will there be rite behind u? one mistake. that's all it takes.
Why do u still dare to ride? Why do u still long to feel the wind in your face? Why do u not fear for your life? have u considered what you'll be leaving behind? who you'll be leaving behind? Who's gonna clear up your mess? Who're u gonna make cry?
Worse still - what if u barely survive? who's gonna take care of you? how are they gonna do that?
Think abt tht.. and alwiz think twice before asking for/accepting a joyride/ lift..

Kill Bill must be the ultimate trashy movie for me! I loved it! it has samurai, swords, japanese, bikes, japanese school girls, uma thurman, lucy liu.. haha.. everything for a trashy movie! and I was lucky I went with a bunch of like-minded ppl.. my NUS kendo group! so we made many loud comments during the movie, there was lots of unrestrained giggling, and we all laughed at the right parts, some wrong parts too (esp the way uma thurman held her sword)! I dun think it'd have been the same if I'd gone with my parents or if I'd gone with non-sword-wielding frens. oh well.. its great that every once in a while, a good trashy flick comes abt specifically for the purpose of commenting and shouting at thru-out the movie.. and not the kind u feel guilty abt lambasting..

We're off to Malaysia for the day!! in a little big white subaru impreza, 5 ppl, driving.. up somewhere in JB to go play with horsies! Give me a Wyld Stallyn anyday!! ride 'em cowboy!! See you in a day, assuming the Wyld Stallyn dun kill me first, or assuming I dun get my head lopped off by a stray branch while on a trail, or assuming the cops in M'sia dun stop us for uncalled for fines, or assuming that our driver, Willy, can take Malaysian roads well, or assuming that......
geez... just go will ya? *toodles*

*update*
I had a real blast with Willy, JY, Ju & Kaz today. It was just totally hilarious frm start to end! As mentioned, we were to do a roadtrip up to a place called Riders' Lodge just past Johor Bahru to do some horse-riding. We scheduled to meet at 9am, in hopes of getting there at 11am for our lesson. I woke on time, but took my time getting ready, JY & Kaz rushed to meet me so we could go meet Willy n Ju in town. Ju was there on time, forgot her map, and had Willy send her home. In the end, we all finally met at - 910am.. and upon hitting the Malaysian side of No Man's Land, realised that we were LATE as hell.. considering the long long JAM!
Anyway, we finally arrived at our destination and got our food out for picnic on the lawn.. it was great, especially since we missed our 11am lesson (which was still to be charged!).. We later went out to the stables to meet our rides - I am unafraid of dogs cos I can gauge their reactions and behave accordingly.. but with horses.. I felt something like fear..

Anyways, the whole thing started out quite funnily cos Willy's horse almost rolled over him! Trust his good survival instincts which kept him frm being crushed! the trail ride in the end was kinda a let down tho as we couldn't go faster than a slow walk.. cos we were unskilled (well, at least 3 of us were) and despite signing the indemnity form, were still not allowed to even TROT! I must interject here that I did envision, in my mind's eye, me galloping thru open fields on a Wyld Stallyn... *sigh* the need for speed had never threatened to emerge more than during tht walk thru the plantation...

Moving on, we had a great seafood dinner at Eden (smtg) near the coast of JB, I can almost see Singapore! 2 Chilli crabs, 2 Black Pepper Crabs (which I highly recommend!!), Assam Sotong, Cereal Prawns, some veg, Man Tou, all for RM114! It was a FANTASTIC meal! There were periods where we all said nothing cos all of us were busy stuffing our faces! We strolled thru the coastal shopping mall, and ended up sitting back and relaxing by the sea.
Got home, and just collapsed.. it was a good day. =)

Note:- the immigration system at Malaysia just SUCKS somehow.. They take the same time to process the passports, but the damn queue is JUST SO DAMN LONG!!!!!!!!!!! Going there and coming back.. we were in a jam tht lasted almost an hour or so.. what did SG do to shorten it? teach those buggers PLEASE!

What's been happening to this Dude..
I had to do research today and came across this interesting article in one of my favourite online publications in a random search - "How I Got Kicked Out of a Fashion Show"
Anyway, many thanks to the hairy one, Cerebrus, again for loaning me his nice little IBM Thinkpad for my work purposes.. I'm currently getting used to it.

Just to keep up with what's been happening - I will be doing an internship in Kaz's marketing consultancy business - kazworks! I got hired not based on my resume, no, she doesn't believe in CVs. Instead, I got hired cos she had a gut feeling that we would be able to work together fine.. (and also on top of the fact tht I came cheap.. =P)
Anyways, I'm gonna be more like a partner.. main role being a "suit" - account executive.. cool name for a person who basically does liaisons, keeps to a tight schedule and makes use of every single lobang he can find to get the job done. Its not boring work at all - oh no man.. its damn hectic, damn stressed, and should be (is so far) quite fun! Is so far? yea.. I've sorta been working for Kazworks! already.. been planning our website, timelines, and now, gathering our company's portfolio so we can make a pitch for an upcoming bid. cool eh?
We arranged to meet at this production studio today to view a corporate video. I wore pin-stripe pants, and a white long-sleeved shirt with a tie in my bag, just in case. She arrived in jeans, and this cute purple halter-thing. I slapped my forehead and promptly folded up my sleeves..
Let me update you on my dreams.. yes, for someone who hardly dreams, I have been having ALOT of dreams in the last week. Everyone's been saying its cos I'm stressed from anticipation. You see, Kaz is a fun gal to go out with, and generally have fun with, but when it comes to work - she's quite a slave-driver. Let me give you my favourite example:

Upon agreeing to work for her, I received 5 emails from her within that one night (just for agreeing)!

That's about when the dreams started. I slept late, like 3-4am, and woke by 8am.. of course I was damn shagged tht whole day!! The second late nite in a row, I realised I was dreaming whilst in the dream and I woke myself up shouting "NOT AGAIN!!??!" to the sun shining in my face @ 7:30am. *sigh* what do YOU think?

In other work-related news - my previous project for Samanea is almost complete - and I've received 2 payments already. Its quite cool to earn money... hehe.. more research projects coming from there in the coming weeks/months (they're happy with my thorough and well-researched results! haha).
I've finally gotten off my bum. feel my pride.

This is smtg to definitely TRY!!
Skittlebrau! Lemme at 'em!!!
Thks to the hairy one - Cerebrus..

Extract of The Big Chase Part III , b-sides by Genshi

I love you, I tell her. I love you and I want us to be together like this forever. My heart is in a torment because my life is a bundle of tangled shreds. But when I'm with you I feel free. I feel like there is nothing to worry about. I feel that everything is right.

She looks at me and smiles. I sit up and we face each other, touching each other's face.

"We don't need to be together forever," she says. "Just every once in a while, I will appear and just every once in a while we'll be this happy."

But I want it to be like that everyday. You by my side, always.

"You don't understand a thing, do you?" She's right, I don't understand a damn thing.

A friend once told me that I should not look for happiness in the form of another person. And this was reinforced again by another fren very recently - you have to be happy with whom u are without the interference of another being, for how will u be able to find yourself if they other being were to be suddenly ripped away?
Being alone by circumstance, and being alone by choice is totally different. I would like to say tht I'm alone cos I have chosen to be. and I could also blame my being alone to other factors - mostly mental. whichever way u look at it, there's an excuse lying in wait. so wat's the point of bringing it up at all?
cyclic ramblings of a disillusioned bum. just to waste your time. good nite.

I dun ask for good looks or great skin, I dun ask for double eyelids, or collagen-enhanced cheeks. I dun ask for a sharper nose, or smaller nostrils. I dun ask for dimples or clefts in chins, nor do i ask for high cheekbones or a squared jaw.
All i ask for is normalcy.
I want to be able to bite. I want to be one of the crowd, I want to be human traffic that goes by unnoticed, without attracting unwanted attention. I want to be treated like one of u, not to have someone be condescending towards me. I want to speak to ppl without wondering if they're dying to noe or not. I want ppl to sit beside me and not treat me like i'm some diseased freak. i want to be given a fair chance with opportunities tht say "pleasant disposition". i want the option to be more than just friends.

Ok, I'm not in any self-pity state or wat. its just tht I had a chat with Kaz n Ju some nites ago and they asked some rather pertinent questions abt my upcoming jaw/mandible surgery. they offered some rather poignant insights which I've been thinking abt since then. they also mentioned tht since i'm doing the op, tht mebbe i could tell the doc to do some re-constructive surgery at the same time, and tell them how i want to look like, ie. some sq-jawed dude or model or wat. so I considered a few of the good looking guys in mags. but after awhile, I realised, I dun wanna look like any of them - I wanna look like me, without the extra 'blessings'. I'll be happy with tht really. really, i would.
I’ve gotten on with my life, i have accomplished things that have given me confidence. I walk with my head held high, and i look you straight in the eye. i am comfortable with the state of my life.. until smtg happens tht will just remind me tht I’m different. Sometimes its not me being sensitive – sometimes its pointblank and in your face. there’s no way to avoid it. there are several types of ppl in this society of ours. If you’ve no idea wat I’ve been saying above, then u’re one of the good guys. everyone deals with assholes every single day of our lives. There are idiots out there, those are the ones tht will never let u forget. Those are the ones who are responsible for a lot of the problems in our world. not much we can do abt it is there?

I've got my own dot.com email address!!!!!!!!!!!!!! woohoo!!!!!!!!! thks to my technical support developer Joong Onn! WTG dude! If u need to create dynamic web pages, or host your website on a cool server, this is the man to get! ever helpful and oh so very efficient!
You can now contact me at my corporate email address - dax@samanea.com (as well as quah.dax.c@alumni.nus.edu.sg, and my old ones tht u prolly noe, or not, but it doesn't matter)..
=)))
*update*
And now, announcing the latest of my corporate emails - dax@kazworks.com!!!

Big Jay's Birthday!
Kinda sad cos I left early.. did promise him tht I'd be going for drinks at Ritz later too.. I'm a damn lousy fren la..

I remember Big Jay as the guy who made going to work during NS fun! We'd go for coffee breaks together, sit and relax at the QAB-Bar, indulge in their bikkies (we paid to join too - they alwiz got good bikkies - cos the despatch ppl {me!} usu bought it for them enroute! - and endless supply of milo!), and just talk abt life and love.. we clicked.. we made fun of the same ppl, and we went out on the occasion too. Once we did this cool thing - we took turns to write a sentence on a piece of paper. each sentence tht we came up with had to start with the last word used in the preceding sentence. unspoken, we came up with a "poem" that had shades of sadness and beauty.. a really cool poem it was. I still have it! but this one's not gonna appear on juneandtheocean.. oh no.. this is quite special. we shared many great sketches on post-it pads too.. =)
Spaz is a great chef - specialising in pastas. I have this fond memory of going to his place, and checking out his vcds, and mtvs while he was in the kitchen experimenting with corned beef! I've never liked corn beef better than when the big dude prepared it! I always said the he should pursue a stand-up comedy act, cos he's just so funny.. and he makes such comments abt ppl... get this... IN FRONT of them! no, not behind.. in front. and they're alwiz HILARIOUS (to us, not to the insulted)! Anyways, I shall desist from gushing abt this dude who made NS great for me.. lest all the rest of u start pestering him (somehow..).
He's finally found a great place to work at (Marche), which suits his busted ankle fine (busted it during NS, on the way to work!), and I try to drop by on the occasion. They've got this disgusting tees for uniforms now tho.. ergh.. so if u see this big guy working behind the meats/steaks section at Orchard Marche - walk by and wink at him!
Jason - here's to another great year ahead of u!

Elf began an argument tonite just as I was abt to go sleep - one should put links of fren's blogs onto one's own blog - so tht frens can inter-blog. It also implies tht at least, u give 2 hoots abt tht fren.
so.. here is my temporary link to Elf's page. salut!

A friendly person. that smiling face, ever cheerful. you meet and u bond just like dat. u think u've met a great person who could be a fab fren. but u learn a lot more in time. that person is like that to everyone, and that's how they make a living - being frenly to everyone.
:Wow, they noe so much abt u, how well do u noe them?
:oh.. hardly actually.. this is my 2nd project with them.. haha

where does that place u? are u a fren or not? is that potential to be really great frens still valid?
:you're so nice to me, do u treat everyone u just meet like dat?
:well, its only so often tht u only meet ppl u can click with and share tht special bond just like dat, so once i find it, i take it!
:ok then, so when was the last time u met someone u din like?
:umm... I can't recall..

I figure its just me. I'm just paranoid. I've alwiz had a mistrust of ppl.. ever since a certain boy pushed me into a fish pond of a certain gal whom i had a crush on when I was a wee laddie.. all the way till now. In any case, most ppl would just dive into this frenship rite? why should i be so calculative and all tht? frenship is abt more than wat u get out of it. not abt expecting to get hurt!
Jump in and enjoy the ride, sez I..

Chalk up another win for the previously-mentioned "method"..
I went out with a female friend last week, she seemed like she wanted me to be a buffer with some company she was to be with tht nite. turns out only this guy came in the end, and we all had a nice 2-hour chat and some drinks at a nice bar in town. I remember the dude as having some problems, he was bogged down, weary, tired.. just needed someone to talk to, and share the burden. This fren of mine had tht concerned look - you have my full attention, and I'm enjoying your company.. the signs were there, but I just dismissed them.
Earlier this evening, I got a msg from a mutual party. She's attached to tht dude! again.. refer to post dated Fri Oct 10, 05:31:33 PM. Another one bites the dust, i say.. but since I dunno the guy all tht well, I can't say he's a player or wat la.. I shan't make any comments, I enjoyed tht nite out as well, and he's a great guy. but I just wanted to say "I TOLD YOU SO!"

argh... the smell...
I put in this old RAM module I had somewhere into my badly under-memoried PC earlier. Somehow the module must have picked up helluva lotta static or smtg cos when I turned on the comp, the damn thing FRIED!
Luckily nothing else was hurt on my baby comp, so everything's fine for now.. but oh.. the smell of burnt components.. its disgusting! and it lingers for so damn long... been a bloody 15 mins already and I'm still inhaling it!
*update* I came back 6 hrs later, and the stench was STILL foul..

Seems there're a lot of people going into freelance web design/development. There are jobs out there, but I just wonder if its the way to go? Sure, in the short term, it'll pay some debts and bills, but wat of the long term? I'm so unsure what to do now..

This is cool. in Life! no less. Denise sent me this link today with a msg "so sweet!!!" check it out..
Also, this article on Friendster, sent by MaNgO.

New Favourite Websites:
1) Paprika (France)
2) Paprika (Singapore)
I wanna be able to create smtg like these one day!

Are You Annoying or Not? (Quiz #1)
Points: 52
You have been classified as "moderately annoying". Although this is nothing to be concerned about, our experts believe that there's still room for improvement.

Are You Annoying or Not? (Quiz #2) - Results
Your total score is: 74
Annoying
Although you could have scored worse, our experts have pinned you as being "annoying." This is nothing to worry about, but if you want people to stop making faces behind your back, it would be best if you consider some adjustments in your life.

okla.. from these, u can see that I am NOT tht bad rite?! I'm really not annoying at all! *relief* never understood why some ppl say I'm annoying.. mebbe they meant annoying in a sweet way? hahahaha

I guess Prema was right.. in life, I should have a plan..
I have let many opportunities slip me by, even if its just the slightest hint of gold. I came out with the intention of having fun with friends, yet I lost sight of the long term goal. How many ppl did I meet tonite tht I did not even introduce myself to? how many did I not even ask how they were? how many where there whom I knew not their names?
by doing so, my doors were opened slightly, but if I were to do so consistently, the doors would have been thrown open by now. I have had many ppl telling me stuff these few weeks, most of which have been perfectly sound advice. sometimes I wish I took my own advice too.
I dunno how to say this.. nvm. *sleep*

*update*
OKTOBERFEST @ Paulaner's!!!

Misc pics of Lesley, Adrian Koh, Shuyin, Joanna, Evan & Prema.

fab fab fab fab fab fab
german band, live band, good brew (specially made for the event!), good food, outdoor seating, good crowd, great company. need i say more? Lesley should have gone up and gotten that autograph of Chistopher Lee (Mediacorp actor) AND proclaimed tht she loved him in Lord of the Rings! That woulda been a fabulous cap for the nite!
post-party at Coyote Ugly (BQ), hmm... not as exciting as I tot it would be.. mebbe cos the gals on the bar top weren't exactly spontaneous. I think paid dancers do it too often tht they lose the extra smtg tht's needed to make it look good.
still.. fun fun fun fun

Karen smiling. Gail drinking. Joanna dancing.

a comparison to be made:
while the Lit Honours ppl frm NUS are out guzzling beer and eating weiners, the ICM Hons ppl are playing badminton, and the Soci Hons ppl are doing their thesis proposals, and the Southeast Hons ppl are having meetings..
What am I doing partying with the Lit Hons ppl u may be asking? I myself was from Soci/ICM combination.. =) let's just say I've got good connections!

also: Lesley's fren Junie (frm archi) is HOT!

There's this age-old tried and tested method - get a gal alone, and show her the sensitive, misunderstood side of u. the side tht u dun show everyday, the secretive, deep emotional side. gals tend to have this motherly bit where they go all concerned and helpful, wanting to allow u a listening ear, cos they feel tht u should just talk, and let it all out, a comforting hug, a warm embrace..
but they dun realise that guys dun talk the way gals talk. gals talk, they get emotive, its the cathartic reaction that they derive from it tht makes them feel all nice and fuzzy after tht. the comforting hug, the warm embrace..
guys only talk when they want to exploit that from a gal. guys talk to evoke that feeling from the gal. and guys make use of that - the comforting hug, the warm embrace..
woe be the airhead who thinks that she's helping him by providing him a listening ear.
but let's be fair, there are guys who talk too. so whom should u open yourself up to then if guys are such deceptive assholes? simple - just make sure it ain't someone u just met. or who just broke up (or u suspect may be looking for an alternative). or who are smooth players.
dun be stupid now.

I realise a lot of blogs tend to have short descriptives of the owner, and I seem to be missing that. i.e:

I am Krunch
18 | singaporean | boy | air-head
guitars | too much hair | little much else

or

Jenna Jameson
She is - actress; adult; porn;
big tits; lesbian; straight; bi..

so I'm just thinking mebbe I should do smtg like dat.. thinking..

second ever Singapore Flash Mob!
could this be it? you've read abt it.. its happened in Sydney (or Melbourne) quite recently.. a bunch of ppl suddenly appear, do something stupid, and then leave in a minute.. its called... a FLASH MOB!
And now.. its come to our sunny organised and politically correct island called Singapore!! so exciting!! I 'm gonna try to be there.. check it out!!
This Saturday - on an MRT.. a PARTY! woohoo!!

*update*
I woke up late and felt damn sick - could be cos the community service work I did in the morning. anyway, in the end I decided not to rush down, and rested instead. Wasn't a waste - it got POSTPONED anyway... due to "lack of contact".. wtf? Chris went down to take a look (Dhoby Ghaut MRT), but said he couldn't find anyone..
I think they'll lose steam this way.. very easily lose their momentum.. empathy in SG culture rearing its lazy face once again?

"...so sweet she's caramelized!"

I had an interesting discussion with a friend. She feels tht "sweet is over-rated".. as a result:

the different uses of the descriptive word "sweet".
1) "She's quite sweet ah?" - referring to a person being of quite nice personage. usually only applies to ppl (more gals than guys.. ) who exude the girl-next-door attitude.
2) "aww, tht's sweet of you" - referring to persons who've done smtg nice to/for/on u, altho not necessarily unknown to u (it could be just smtg polite to say in return for wat was done to/for/on u).
3) "She's sweet" (matter of factly) - meaning a person may or may not be rather nice, but you have nothing better to say, and so in order to be polite when asked, rather than saying "she's normal" (to which some ppl mite get offended), u safely say "she's sweet".
4) "She's sweeeeet!" (with some excitement almost akin to Squirt of Finding Nemo fame) - meaning a person is a really great package, but yet u dun wanna seem over-enthusiastic and giving away tht u're not in control of your emotions (and say smtg like "ohmigod she's so hot I'd tear my clothes off and run arnd naked just to get her to look at me!").
5) "She's so sweet she's caramelized!" - referring to "tart-y" gals who are beyond girl-next-door, and have gone on to bad girl-who-opens-many-doors!

and wat of the sweetest gal I noe? well.. pick a number.

28 Days Later...

I saw a poster for it some time back.. it wasn't showing then, but it was one of those flicks tht I want to watch.. it came steathily, so unlike the enraged-virulent-people. before I knew it, the movie's run was going to end already! Adrian Koh was keen on it as well, and we decided one nite at Athar tht we were to catch tht movie, and soon..
After some hiccups and long travelling to find a movie tht we both could make, we went.. I find tht director Danny Boyle's formula does indeed work - having non-stars act in a horror flick - u never noe who's gonna die at any time.. I like films tht can put u thru different feelings - fear, sadness, humour and death. There were many themes tht emerged tht Adrian and I were able to point out and comment on. One recurrent theme of note would be tht man has been killing man since time immemorial (wars, terrorism, hate, fear), why is it any different when there's a virus tht inbibes ppl to go arnd killing each other? its essentially still man killing man - just thru a different agent.
the whole bluntness it was delivered during a dinner scene by the major, which left a lingering silence.. seeming to echo the viewers own thought-process. beaut! the intro scenes of protests and war come back to mind during these moments as well.
It was gory, whenever Jim was in danger, the camera lost its focus, allowing the viewer to get the sense of panic tht the protagonist felt at tht point in time.. just run! and when the infected were performing atrocities on someone, there would be increasingly quick cutscenes and the camera angle would be really shaky - the viewer is unable to see exactly wat is being done, but will most definitely be cringing (the sound was pretty intense too). in a sense, its cool cos the movie budget being small, but it led to an experimentation of these camera effects instead. in the end, the infected is just a man covered with blood, wearing red contact lenses! a big hollywood budget can't get u tht, only pretty faces screaming with mock-shock expressions.
the movie's horror-timing was a variant of hollywood's old and boring method, but enuff to still shock. music was haunting - especially when they had female vocals singing unaccompanied other than by her own echo.. how abt "deafening silences"? tht was portrayed damn well with the accompanying music when Jim was walking arnd the empty streets of london - no one, no movement, nothing in sight.. frm the silent slow strums of a guitar which built up into a crashing electric noise climax! all whilst in the silence tht was enveloping Jim..
all in all - 4/5 for a horror/gore flick.. I like.. too bad the run ends today.

Hmm... they say that people in advertising have no life? I would like to beg to differ. I have 2 contrary examples in mind (quite fresh ones too, considering my lousy memory) which will scream a huge NO WAY! at you.
These guys work hard, and they work long hours, YES.. but they play just as hard.. trust me. Examples of stuff these 2 amazing ppl have done in the last few weeks apart from work (and are planning to do) - holidayed in sentosa (and some miscellaneous regional beaches), pursued interests in shaolin, picked up salsa, kept up with frens, makanned suppers, tot of books of stuff to be written, weekend trips up to M'sia to ride horses, clubbing in M'sia.. they really go all out and play lor..
I was propositioned by Kaz today, cos she's been thinking abt getting some help for an upcoming big project. I'm really amazed at the amount of faith she has in me - in trusting me to be kinda in charge of some aspects of it.. if all goes well, she'll become my boss (or partner as she prefers to call it)! Yes! I shall be actually be employed (isn't tht new..)! Thks for the great company Juyi and Kaz! I would like to write more but I dun think I shall resist the potent sleep drug any longer... May be doing a M'sia drive up afterall sometime in Oct.. to KL.. to party? haha.. losing track of priorities as the parents would say.. traditionalism? *sigh* can't argue with some things.. or can u?

Again, I'm too tired to go on abt some stuff tht has cropped up in my head.. guess I'm losing my late-nitedness already.. good riddance! g'nite y'all.. *yawn*

"Hey, so wat were u planning to do for your day off anyways?"
"I'm planning to hv lunch wif a really nice guy. Why? =)"
A beautiful start to a promising day ahead..

*update* turns out this little lady just wanted to discuss a possible business proposal.. chey.. (can u tell she's a marketing consultant?) =P still.. was pretty fun hanging out and checking out what she does.. and the secret to success is - *drumroll*

even if I knew, as if I'm gonna publish it on a freely-read blog like this!

Apologies dear readers, I haven't really had the time to write proper entries lately, been kinda rushed. some cos of work, some cos I've to rush for some appointment. I guess it all implies that I've got things to do. which would be good I suppose.
In any case, was at this Shisha place tonite at Arab St..
Basically, shisha is a method of smoking thru a water-filtered pipe. There's no tobacco involved, only scented things.. so u order some flavour (mostly fruity), and when it comes, just place the pipe at the side of your mouth, and inhale deeply. kinda like smoking, but without the foul acrid taste of nicotine, and its much smoother. I so wanted to try it cos I tot it was kinda like smoking a bong (hehehe - anwyay, Jo said it wasn't). Only problem I had was tht I somehow couldn't TASTE the goddamned thing!! All I got was smoke, not unpleasant la, but its supposed to taste like strawberry or apple (the two flavours we ordered)!! Adrian Koh and Jo got the whole thing fine, and were enjoying themselves puffing away.. I spent the most time trying.. the only taste I got was from inhaling the stuff when it wafted by occasionally. THAT was nice, but too much of a good thing alwiz turns sour..

Anyways, after awhile I gave up. I was pouting I tell ya. Oh well. guess sometimes u just never were meant to do some things. Its kinda like why I never got hooked to smoking - I couldn't do it coolly enuff and i just hated the foul taste. I just dun understand why ppl inhale tht shit.. I noe I tried it cos I tot it was cool (yes, when u read abt those kids who started cos they tot it was cool - i might've been one of them), but it never agreed with me (and yes, I noe its a stupid reason for starting).
In any case, Shisha was an experience.. we could also do it while lying on carpets, which IMHO, would prolly have been a more authentic experience. Chalk up another notch for a new thing tht I've tried..

was supposed to go drive up to M'sia with Chris n Lor.. tht din pan out for some reasons. mostly timing. still hope to do tht soon.
many revelations swimming arnd in this tired head of mine.. have to sit down and type one day soon.

*update* I'm currently BROKE AGAIN!!!!!

Excellent movies I've watched in the last two days:
Twilight Samurai
Underworld

Twilight Samurai is just a great piece of wonderful story-telling. Lessons learned, its not wat others think of u, its how happy you are of your own station tht allows u to have a fulfilling life. also, never insult a samurai's sword/ ability.
Underworld is really great... if u love vampires, dark gothic movies, and matrix-fashion. Its shot almost entirely at night, in subterranean locales and in beautiful houses tht reek of invested vampire blood money. Best shots I loved - when Kate Beckinsale falls many floors down, lands and very quickly and nonchalantly, carries on walking..

Just at Jo's site, and found this link - Sminds.com.

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I took this test and after getting my results, lost it, came back and did it immediately after - with some answers slightly different but still ended up with the exact same result! must be accurate... or they show the same thing to everyone...

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rite...

slip sliding down into the depths of dearth again.. ladder's gone all slippy, covered in greedy grease n lonely lube. oh, i was free for such a while. a little innocent trigger and its all back. damn..
mebbe I'm just goddamned tired. gonna take a lil' nap now. see u when it gets brighter when I arise. i hope.